Drew

My fabulous, funny, caring Drew

I have now had my last chemo, so now looking forward to what the future brings.

It has been a learning curve to say the least, for both of us.

We have realised that there is so much more to life and not to waste a single moment.  We have talked about our future plans in length, now we need the courage to carry them out. To grab life and give it a shake.

But this post is about Drew.  Such a popular person and deservedly so. 

He has been my rock, I cannot even start to imagine what he has had to cope with, the highs and the dreadful lows, the hopes and the despairs.

To see him despair and cry because he cannot comfort me. His strength of heart is amazing, his spirit is inspiring, but above all he is the love of my life.

Thank you Drew, for being you.

Kutani Snowfall

Our handsome boy is growing up.  He has been away with Olga in Russia but will be coming back home by the end of the year.  

He has some very exciting stud work can't wait to see how the puppies look.

Strike A Light For Kutani

The wonderful Javi (a Noah son)

At SKC he not only took the Best of Breed under judge Joan Scarll

but he surpassed himself with Group 2 under Mark Cocozza

Way to go Javi

Javi is owned and showed and loved to pieces by Vicky Clutterbuck

Rosco

Littondale Replay Kutani

pictured in the Group ring at B'ham City Champ Show 

after taking his 2nd CC under judge Jane Lilley

Delores (Della)

This girl makes me smile so much

Della

Avgit Delores Del Rio D'Kutani

Just in case you are wondering, it is the front feet that are white !

Kutani

A unique selection of Champions

Thank you Kelly Anne Kindness

From top left going clockwise: 
Ch Kutani Reckless, Ch Tantra's Plenty O'Toole Isa a Kutani,
Ch Kutani Secret Agent, Ch Kutani Lightning Strike,
Ch Kutani Skyfall, Ch Kutani My Girl,
Ch Kutani Rogue Trader and Ch Kutani Soldier Soldier

MYA

My beautiful young star now carries her Title and Crown

CC SELAS Championship Show
thank you to Judge Jacqui  Chalmers (Chethang)

Ch Kutani My Girl

Just 20 months old 

Sire: Ch Kutani Skyfall

Dame: Ch Tantra's Plenty O'Toole Isa A Kutani

Kutani My Girl

My takes her 2nd ticket with BOB

at East Of England Champ Show

under our judge Sue Bird giving CCs for the first time in this breed

So proud of this girl

New Arrival

Tough times are always made better by a new puppy

Here is 'Avgit Delores Del Rio D'Kutani

better known as Della

Thank you to Olga Viola and Olga Ivanova for our precious black diamond

Kutani Snowfall

A day in the life of Jonas in Russia, with Olga Ivanova

Upsidedown

My world has been turned upside-down!

Back at the beginning of the year I knew I had a bit of a problem, slight pain in my abdomen.

When it got much worse I went to see the Doc.

Yes Mrs Cain, you have a mass inside you!

Upshot was that I had a mass on my ovary, a big one, which had to be taken out and examined.

OK I thought, lets just get on with it, shouldn't take long.

Long story short, I had the surgery to remove anything that didnt need to be there.  Surgery went well and I was a happy bunny.

Off went all my bits for testing and I carried on as normal, no pain, no hangups.

Delusion

Called back in to see the Oncologist (?) Why Oncologist, I don't have cancer!

Spoke at length to the doctor who said everything was removed successfully BUT

there were cancerous cells found - WHAT!

Well thats ok as long as they got them all out, right ?

Yes as far as they know they did get them all, but just in case one cell escaped I needed CHEMOTHERAPY.

I thought the doctor and the nurse (MacMillian Nurse) had got the wrong notes in front of them and were talking about someone else.

I remember feeling numb and then angry and then raging

"if you think I am going through that then you have another thought coming"

No, no way.

But they kept on talking at me.  I looked at Drew, he had gone white and drawn.

I got up and left the room, but the nurse took me aside to another room and talked to me.  I didn't like her.  She talked to me as if I was dying, all sympathetic and quiet.  I don't like that sort of thing.

I remember coming away with lots of books and leaflets, all of which went into the bin as soon as I got home!

Drew was so upset by my reaction, think if we both could have jumped off a cliff right then, we would have.  And I had yet to tell my family, my daughter, grandchildren, whom I adore.

My daughter is one of the most grounded people I know, and I love her for it.

We talked, we cried, we put forward arguments, but in the end there was always going to be one answer.  To have the chemo.

I want to see my beautiful grandchildren grow into beautiful people, I want to be part of their lives.  So you see, after all the raging and head banging, the answer was always going to be, yes.  And of course Drew will be right by my side.